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Journal Abandoned Wednesday May 18, 2005.

And I’m good, good, good to go
I got to get away
Get away from all of my mistakes

So here I sit looking at the traffic lights
The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites
I want to run away I want to ditch my life
Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Consequences
Oh God, don’t make me face up to this
And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
Cause I know that I let you down
And I don’t want to deal with that

It just now hit me this is more than just a set back
And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that
And every trace of momentum is gone
And this isn’t turning out the way I want

And after all of my alibis desert me
I just want to get by
I don’t want nothing to hurt me
I had no idea where my head was at
But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that
Because I just want for all of this to end

And I spent all last night
Tearing down
Every stoplight
And stop sign in this town
Now I think there might
Be no way to stop me now
I'll get away despite
The fact I’m so weighed down

All of my escapes have been exhausted
I thought I had a way but then I lost it
And my resistance was once much stronger
And I know I can't go on like this much longer

When I got tired of running from you
I stopped right there to catch my breath
There your words they caught my ears
You said, “I miss you son. Come home”
And my sins, they watched me leave
And in my heart I so believed
The love you felt for me was mine
The love I’d wished for all this time
And when the doors were closed
I heard no I told so’s
I said the words I knew you knew
Oh God, Oh God I needed you
God all this time I needed you, I needed you

And I so hate consequences
And running from you is what my best defense is
I hate these consequences
Because I know that I let you down
Now I don't wanna deal with that

Holy crap!  The other day my brother and I were driving home and Richard saw a couch on the side of the road....so we brought it home!  Free couch!

A little ingenuity,  a grappling hook, and the grand am brought her home.  Score.  Free couches are always the best.

OWNED!

What a great sport.  I had a fight last night at the New Daisy.  For those of you who missed it,  it was alot of fun.  About a dozen fights were witnessed by a group of, again, about a dozen of us.   If you didnt go you missed out! 

I never thought I would update this again. So much has happened since my last post I could fill volumes of books without even sharing details.

I went to the bahamas for a week, that was so amazing. I'm pretty sure our senior class has lost their minds. A bohemian sunset is more beautiful than any gem I have ever seen.

I didn't get to go to lifehouse tonight, I'm devastated. I wanted to go listen to "spin" live so badly. Hahah wow I'm being so emo.

On a happier note, I saw the ring 2 tonight. It was by far the funniest scary movie I have ever seen. I got Half-Life 2, and I've been playing it. It's so amazing.

Wow I'm rambling so bad. I can't compose a solid thought.

Kudos to those who come to my fight on April 1st. It's at the new daisy and Im not sure when it starts, so gimme a call if you're interested.

Time for apple juice and a baked potato? Indeed.

You are pretty much the coolest animal, a Liger.


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Okay here's the deal. Saturday was probably the most ninja filled day ever. For starters I had Judo all morning and i owned some bottom. That was cool, but typical of my saturdays lately. The amazing part was this:

After I left Judo I met Austin and Lep at Wal-Mart (The new one) to buy material to make a pirate flag. Well we bought the material and the spray paint and made one at Doug Williams house. (I'll post pictures later of what it looks like) Shortly thereafter we all split up and they went to dinner and I went to my brothers concert, which was very good. Foxy Hogan really has their stuff together. Whats so amazing about a pirate flag you might ask? Well I'll tell you. The amazing part is that mys3lf, matt, and andy snuck into the old abandoned wal-mart, snuck up the roof, and hung it on their flag pole. Cars from Waffle House can see it, its that big. We were completely hardcore doing it, too. We had three cars set up to watch for the fuzz and had walkie talkie transmissions back and forth. Austin was sitting on Kimbrough with a walkie talkie pretending to have "car trouble" so he could watch for the fuzz, while Lep was sitting in Waffle House checking the Chick-Fil-A entrance. Well once the flag was up I duct taped it to the pole. Andy got the whole thing on film and later we watched it at Jow's house. The cool part was that we used twist ties to seal the roof shut so no one can take the flag down, and then tied a rope to a place in the roof and rapelled down. That's right, we rapelled down the side of Wal-Mart. HXC for sure.

Okay here's the deal. There is something plaguing the internet that needs to be dealt with, so I'm dealing with it right here, right now. You know those messages you get from someone that says something along the lines of "Tomorrow is national kiss day! Send this message to 200 friends and you'll be successful in every relationship you'll ever have and if you don't you'll fail miserably in life"? Well here's my suggestion. Whenever someone does that, just kill them. I realize its done via the internet, but odds are you can find them. People like that need to be taught a lesson. After a few hundred people the message will be clear. Don't be a freakin retard. Kilobytes of text transfered through cyberspace does not affect your life. At all.

P.S. Show this blog entry to 7,583 friends or you will be a miserable failure in life.

Should I go with a black paint job, or another color?  Leave your input.

Hey buddies!

Well this week started with Anna and I getting in a huge fight, but being the reasonable people we are we worked it out and are now better for it. Hours later, Matt got baptized by the amazing Phil Newberry. Later this week Davids lung collapsed and he had to get it inflated in the ER.

Between the last words I wrote and now my dad walked in and managed to put me in a terrible mood. Venezuela was one of the most amazing times in my life, and ever since I've felt a desire for missions. Well a friend of mine asked me to go to Asia with him to help with Tsunami relief, so I was thrilled. Well I start to get my hopes up and addiitional information about it, and as soon as it looks like I can go my mom doesnt feel safe about it. My mom doesnt feel safe about my kickboxing. Her irrational fears are really starting to get on my nerves. Yeah so maybe theres muslim radicals over there but last I checked they're killing people over here too. They killed thousands of American citizens on our own soil. (September 11th) In Venezuela we had to be protected by an armed gaurd around the clock in a compound with a ten foot tall barb wire fence. Yeah so theres danger, but if God wants me there then what is there to be afraid of? What a naive decision. They didnt even have any information on where I'm going.

On a brighter note, I got my blue belt in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. Woo hoo. No one cares. Props to the people that feign interest about my accomplishments in any of my classes.

-Post abandoned.

I almost put a huge rant on here about things that are frustrating me, but in its stead is this.

Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost
But now I'm found
Was blind, but now i see so cleary
Hallelujah, Grace like rain falls down on me.

Kinda puts things in perspective.

Well it'll be Christmas day in fifteen minutes. Santa should be climbing down the chimney any moment now with my assault rifle. I put milk and cookies out for him but I think Basil ate them all. Santa is gonna be ticked. The real reason I decided to update was for my own benefit. I know certain songs produce certain emotions for me, but I just realized some make me want to go different places. Here's the list:

Men at Work-Land Down Under: Makes me want to be on a trail in africa with nothing but a jeep, a gun, and a canteen.

Styx-Come Sail Away: When this song is played It makes me want to sell everything I own and buy a boat so I can sail into the sunset.

30 Seconds to Mars: Echelon- Venezuela. Everytime this plays on my playlist I want to go to Venezuela. That is probably the coolest place in the world.

Anything by the Get Up Kids- Driving around in Wills Maxima in Eads...wow crazy times

Green Onions makes me want to play baseball.

ANYTHING by Guster makes me want to go to the beach, specifically seaside. I don't care what anyone says I'm going on a road trip this summer. Post on my comments if you wanna go.

Matchbox 20 and Blink 182 remind me of the last few months of 2003 and all the things that transpired there.

Ah fun stuff. Like I said, this is for my benefit. No one probably cares about what music I like, I just want to have this to look back on.

It's Christmas now! This post took about 15 minutes. You probably read it in two. Oh well Santa should be here soon and if I'm awake thats an automatic on the naughty list. OH!! Here's a joke.

Why does is Santa so happy this time of year? Because he knows where all the naughty girls live!!! HAHAHAHAHAH

...and thats how the cookie crumbles folks.

Hey kids! Wow what an exciting weekend.  Friday night myself, Will, David, and Matt got handcuffed and thrown in the back of squad cars for waving toy guns out the window at prostitots.  The cops freaked out.  It's not like thats harmful or anything.  Now if we planted land mines in the parking lot that would be a different story.  And probably a much more entertaining one.

So the next night I took the lovely Anna Haley out to Winter Formal.  Wow that was the most fun I've had in awhile. Dance dance dance.  So on the way home I get pulled over for curfew...kinda.  Yet again an instance of cops being gay.  Why cant we all just get along!? 

So the last few days I've gone Christmas shopping and spent the night at Wills.  Christmas shopping has put me in this mood:

        

I made that all by myself on paint. 

This weekend better redeem this week.  It's been kinda depressing. I've had to miss class two nights  in a row and now its over until Jan 3rd.  Ah at least I have Gatlinburg to look forward to.  Of course,  that could always bomb as well.

Merry Christmas.

Okay for those of you who don't know who Amilcar is, he is the worthless mexican that used to work at chick-fil-a. Keywords-USED TO!!! Turns out our amigo amilcar got fired!!! I was devastated to learn of his release, chick-fil-a isnt the same...

UPDATE: I was driving through McDonalds ordering my usual bucket of chicken nuggets, and I heard a familiar voice on the intercom. Could it be? Well, I pull around and yes! Yes it is! It's the most worthless person alive, Amilcar!!! Will and I are in the car at this time, and I drive around and shout Hey Amilcar! Well naturally he had no idea who I was so he freaked out. Then I killed him. Well, that part isnt true but the rest is! Amilcar lives on! Viva Amilcar!

UPDATE AGAIN!: Ok it turns out he didnt get fired...how boring. Amilcar is now throwin it down at McDonalds for plenty of hours. Hurrah for Amilcar.

Hey kids!  Today I woke up at 10:30,  which was really nice.  The only problem was that I woke up on the downstairs couch; this is strange because I fell asleep upstairs in my room...I think this guy tried to abduct me-

Next time, cookie monster...YOU'LL NEVER GET MY COOKIES!!!!

muaahahah.

OK! I had the coolest dream possible. Well, no one knows this but my plan for when I turn 18 is to go skydiving AS SOON as I turn 18. I thought about it so much and played so much Halo that I had this dream:

Ok I get out of my steel seat to realize im at the outer rim of earth, in a plane, about to skydive. Except I realize that I'm not on earth, im on some other planet. So I look outside and the sky is like aqua blue and the ground is an almost neon green, and as soon as I realize this I'm tossed out of the plane parachuteless. Thats right, no parachute. As I begin to plummet to the ground I realize that I'm falling as the same rate as earth but i can fly! Kinda weird...but then in the air are floating WAY up are these trees, except they arent normal trees they are giant trees curled up in one another, almost like a giant tree ball, and inside these floating tree balls are treehouses, so I latch onto one of the floating trees and climb in to see a homeless man sitting against a wall....then I kicked him in the head and dove back out plummeting to the ground again. I hit the ground then woke up. Strangest dream ever, but I liked it alot. It had skydiving, treehouses, homeless people, and me dying! Perfect.

Im starting an Oceans 13. If you want in IM me and I'll edit this entry. For now this is everyone:

Me- Elite debonair head guy. And explosives.
Andy- He can order a pizza like nobodys business
Anna-The hot girl that pilots the getaway plane
Britian-He can go through any accident and survive
Emily- Samurai with a lacrosse stick
David Barton-Dude with the Bimmer
Hayley-The smart one that comes up with how to steal
Brad- The drunk grease man
David H.- Assassinations with a smile!

Guys....I just thought this was blog worthy. Not just profile worthy, blog worthy. Check it out
A convo between me and David H
Kyoushu Zero: u have answers to a few questions on the study guide?
CRDXII: maybe
CRDXII: ask
Kyoushu Zero: what did king alfred do for england?
CRDXII: united it
Kyoushu Zero: battle of hastings
CRDXII: 1066
Kyoushu Zero: yeah but i need details ryan, DETAILS!
Kyoushu Zero: who won/lost
CRDXII: pitty lost
CRDXII: to moses
CRDXII: to an armbar
Kyoushu Zero: ok
Kyoushu Zero: norman invasion and crusades
Kyoushu Zero: when/who/why who won who lost
CRDXII: who cares man
Kyoushu Zero: ha
Kyoushu Zero: o well
Kyoushu Zero: i will end with a b average either way
Kyoushu Zero: not too concerned
CRDXII: likewise man
Kyoushu Zero: all i need is a 1.5 gpa for the year and college is free







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